Uneasy Mind

"Sometimes our my mind is behaving very uneasy and unpredictable...It is happening with me from last 2 months...After dad , life has changed.Now the things are becoming more complicated.Mind is unburden , but its again uneasy because some sixth senses.. somehow i don't believe in future i believe future always in our mind control.Still having same dream and same vision again and again disturbing me...I am not ready to accept it.But i know it might be true....But why it would be true...I am doing it action in present , I am thinking about it...Even i don't have any single thought of it.But why i am seeing my death very clearly and know my date and timings?I am not ready to accept it...i know may be its my work pressure or somehow mental stress....
I bet this would not be happen anymore , I would control it..........."

Well after reading above line..I know u must be shocked about me and my mind set , Must be thinking the gal has gonna mad and going out of mind....yeah..any normal person would think like this only and every normal guy always thinks about his future , Money and LIFE...If everything is going fine in his life he always believe to live as long as he can...but if something went wrong he always thinks when i will get free?? But One most common thing he always talk to himself and connect himself with god...only when , when he is in trouble....but my dear frds when u are happy  then u connect with god?not when ur life is going good ..calm peace and happy!!

Uneasy mind always feed uneasy thoughts and easy thoughts are always straight.....but somehow uneasy mind must be one time part of life phases...and must strike in your life in every interval..

Tension of Project!!

Its 12:15 PM , i am not able to sleep.I am in tension of my project.Its not my nature to take unnecessary professionalism burden on my head, but still i don't know why i am in tension.This project matter lot for my career, I belong to good account and have very good reputation and this the biggest challenge of my career to make it succeed!! But some how due to some unavoidable circumstances my team is not working properly..i am corp orating lot with them , listening and understand their personal reason and all are behaving in very much immature way!!

Most senior person is behaving most irresponsible, Most trustworthy person behaving most untrustworthy....Rest normal guys are new they are just native !!I don't know how to handle them, it is happening first time in my career i am feeling so much helpless....I am feeling i have lost my PR skills and all...I know it is happening with everyone and its very much common but still it is very much unhealthy for me..i am thinking and thinking...i have spent my whole day to manage them but still ...........

If i would behave like Hitler TL then its again not good for my team...If i would behave like normal , i will loose the good opportunity and coolness of my nature is getting buzz!!

I am planning to get up earlier in the morning and reach office before normal time, I would try , tomorrow morning I manage them in little bit strict way....otherwise its not good for all of us...After all its responsibility!!

Now i am feeling, Its very tough to be manager and Its really uneasy job....Project and Responsibility is not easy task to handle....

y this kolevri D? Why this band D?

As usual, I am sharing my IT experience again. April month is famous for making April fool, but it is again famous making fool to more than 1 lac "jantu kantu parantu" yaani Software engineer....

This time i am not as such big sufferer but still i am suffer...because aapko agar khushi milti hai toh bhagwan gum dahej main jarur deta hai...i got it.....

kahete hain insaaaan ko apne gum se jada dukh dusaron ki khushi se hoti hai...but here ganda is flowing in wrong direction...I am suffering because other have poorer rating than me , and they are behaving like i have done the biggest crime!!

With respect to my hard and smart work i got lot of appreciation and good rating...but with respect to my rating...other guys definitely lie in low curve fitting...and this is not gud for my health!!

Kuch balak ache main curve main toh kuch burey main...bole toh Don ka D dekar unke bekar kar diya...aur unka kaam mujhe Don B bana kar mere ser daal diya!!...

Yeh achi baat hai we have to work hard and smart , but its again wrong to do....lot of hard and smart!!

I know i am writing very much pakau , but still wanna write... because why this 'D'?? Duniya bannaey waale tune 'D' kyon banaya? agar banaya toh ismain upaya kyon nahin bataya!!

'D' dusaron ko mila toh bhi main D for Dog bani
'B' Mujhe mila toh bhi main Dusaron ki nazaron main Bitch ban gayi...

Why this kolaveri D?? Why this kolaveri D??