Missing my soul

Today i am missing something and wanna cry very badly and wanna hug my mom , my friend and my dad.Actually i am missing my dad alot.I remember one year back , at this time my dad was in hospital, he was suffering very badly , he was in pain and sadness..which i cannot express in words.He wanted to stay with us, wanna see me as Dr Alpa Chadha ...But Sab kuch khattam ho raha tha..we were trying our the best , i fought alot ..cried alot..destroy myself ...and i didn't want him to go away from us....But it was not in my control.

   On that day i realised , Nothing is control , Life is keep flowing and we have to accept the reality..But yaar its very difficult , I know how i am feeling right now.I wanna to talk to my dad , wanna show my happiness and success of career...my new western  dresses....my feelings and wanna share everything....but cannot do that.I am writing because i wanna diverge myself and to come to normal.

I miss my Christmas with dad(as we are angrezi dad-daughter)and i miss my jokes which we used to cracked for movies/TV shows and fashion TV.I miss my teasing words for mom...Me and my dad were used to do eye conversation for mom and cracked funny talks about our Naani(mother side) House-"Kamali da tabbar kaddi nahin sudhhar sakdda"...

I am feeling very lonely..i am missing warmness of my dad hug.he hold my hand and always say "Alpa Na kalpa"....

Today i wanna happy so planning to go out and have some daru and dance...lets c kya program banta hai...


Well i hope dad soul is fine and always with us....

Love u Dad!!

Choti si Love story....

Love in air....Now a days my room mate is in love and she shared her experience with me..I tried to give my love tips.(As you know I am born love guru).But this time I am failed....because this story has something different which is again very much common...it is a simple love story of elder woman with young boy!!

She is dating a guy who is very much young and chill kinda and she is freaky and mature person. I don't know its good or bad to have younger man in your life but one thing I know relation base  on mind and physical frequency level and what I feel they have both!!

Love doesn't bother your age gap , culture and other environmental factors. Well its all about rubbish ,old fashion and myth now!!

I asked her how can it possible you are in love with younger boy...U don't expect security and maturity ? Like he is 6-7 yrs younger to you..

She replied I am mature enough to handle him and somehow I miss fun part of my life which I fulfill with him. I wanna enjoy my early young days and he is the one who made my day by cracking college typo gud sense of humor jokes....kuch ajeeb laga...but then I deeply analyzed ...Its very true...and we all are working and our life is fading day by day , we need good break and miss fun days like college ..school ...

We highly need fun and cool life to work efficiently and moreover to be happy!!

She knows she is very much independent and responsible , so she doesn't expect these things from him and she also knows she can handle imbalance age gap and  this time she has given more importance to happiness and love and I don't think its bad...End of the day your happiness matter....

Now I have new definition of love......Just do unlimited masti and happiness....rest things will easily manage!! Well said. " True love is strong like anything!!"

Just flow into it.....don't give dam to any other tension...