Friday, March 29, 2013

H1 Visa door of unsatisfaction....

I am writing this article to share some personal experience and connection between life and un satisfaction.Life is what ? Nothing and it is everything the only difference i can feel  is if it is beautiful , you would say ...we are satisfied and if you are sad and struggling then you would say , i am unsatisfied......

Same as when you don't have job you always say we are unsatisfied and always pray in front of god-"hey bhagu job lagva de...main prasad chadaunga ...main yeah karunga ...main voh karunga....." aur jab job lag jaati hai...your felings like.....peak time of love making and satisfaction level can't defined in words..just feel it....
few months later..its like.....kya hua its ok...job hai...sabke pass hai ...extra kya hai humare pass...and this kinda feelings are door of unsatisfaction....!!

The same thing happened with me, few months back i was crazy to come to US and have some calculations in my mind and the day i got the visa , i was like Miss India for me and Miss universe for my family and life for me ...wow its beautiful......now its being 1 year now......feelings has totally changed....i always say what a big deal to work in US with big brand......its OK...Now i want to work for wall street.....1  job in wall street ...and one house in US is the last wish....is it? Really?

I know i will have all above in few months ....but what about next phase of life? After few years i will be the same as i am now...unsatisfied....dukhi...sadiest!

Sometimes my mind set behave indifferent like.....i don't wanna earn big money ...i don't wanna have number of flats in India..i know its all about false statement of life...no satisfaction in this greediness...i just want to have handsome salary and home....with family and kids ....but again its unsatisfaction....because my heart demand the same.....Kids should be more confortable..house should be big and Salary is handsome if it is Really handsome.....

One thing i understand we human being can never change....for us life is always unsatisfaction and no one can win this layer....ya but we can put the efforts to markdown its dominance...

Latest trend in our life-"H1 Visa ....job change in US...." latest slogan of IT man....every s/w engineer is thinking like this....GC chahaiye..90K ka package chahaiye....etc etc....

I am not able understand...why this struggle? why you need so much of money which you can't enjoy it....if you are in America , you should be American....for god sake try to understand this line...to be an American is very tough to adapt and to in  America is very easy to stamp!!

So ball in your court to decide..which is better to have satisfaction and unsatisfaction....

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

akhiri saans

aaj aakhiri khatt hai tumhare naam.....shayd yeah voh akhiri samaan hai joh lautana hai....kuch is  tarah samjhaana hai hai........kari hai dillagi ....kiya tha tum parr aetbar....

khamosh nazaron se dekha....khaamoshi ko samjha....magar shayd humara pyaar he khamosh tha joh sab kuch kahe kar hi khaamsoh tha....

kahena tha tumsey ...kahe nahin paayi....pukaarna tha tumhe...tum pukar nahin paaye....shayd aab akhiri saans main kahungi....haan yeah mohabhabt thi joh khamoshi main thi....ek sundar aehsaas tha....mitha sa pyar tha....

pukaar lena....jab yaad aaye ..aaungi sab bandhan tod kar.....rukungi nahin kahin nahin.....sab chod aaungi.....




Sunday, March 3, 2013

Age matter?

Yesterday I attended party of my few onsite folks , but I am sorry to say..I haven't enjoyed it....I got bored and somehow ek doubt mind main aa gaya hai....am i eligible for this young group?

I don't know few days before I was mad for their company and enjoy their college typo jokes and non sense and funny talks....it was new for me and some how refreshing...but as the time is passing..ek irritation si ho rahi hai......I am not enjoying them anymore and I am expecting something mature and grown up company......I want to have some special social discussion which I used to do in Delhi with friends of my age group......

Is it matter of age gap? may be the phase of 4 month was "chaar din ki chadani" ...I have lost all charm of this change and now I am back to my old house....I am feeling myself as a different person ...and this is again strange for myself too...The person  I like the most is now more irritating for me...I am not able to bear his jokes anymore.....I want to slap him and ask him to seal his lips....

Its not like I am getting boring... Oldie  and don't wanna have fun in my  life...but somehow I want to do it in mature way....I am feeling now I am grown up......my age and mental level won't accept it now...and I also  knows it is not time being feelings.. It is ROM feelings which is absolutely  non volatile

One thing I realize , sometimes you should left your life decision on time and time is seriously the best healer....and Today it has given me proof...few days back I was going on wrong track and confused about myself and my life goals ...but today's morning is like new life for me...and I think I am clear now and hope won't repeat the  mistake again...........

In my whole conversation I am not saying you should not have young folks in your life....but its good to have mature company with time .....Age gap doesn't matter , what matter only company !!

Company somehow depend on age group and your mindset.....and my mindset has changed now...